Minggu,, akhir taun(20),, brakhir pasti

fto2 yang mmbuatqu sadar,, kalo dy tu emang bukan sgalanya,,
you're with her now,, someone else... i just can't figured it out... tell me why it's doesn't happen 5 years ago,,,
when my my feeling not yet so deep to him..
i'm so.. confuse...
like i never felt this way before...
d' sincere feeling doesn't comes true,, & the last sunny is dissapear..
udah udah,,, anggap z that's nothing,,, sesuatu yang emang kdu bner2 brakhir karena diawali dg hal ytang salah,,
gk sharusnya cnta sejati tu diberikan ma dy...
but i still believe...
311223 tuy mnjadi debu yang b'tebaran,, saling memisah shin gga gak bsa dsatukan lagi...
mnjadi ssuatu yang hampa,, mnjadi ssuatu yang tidak berarti.. kosong...
sang p[nunggu sejati tlah lelah mnunggu untuk ssuatu yang tanpa akhir,,
mnunggu seorang teroris cinta yg gk bkalan ngerti,,
yang dy aku sbagai MR22...
I HATE THIS PART... REALLY... I HATE VERY MUCH...

mentoring trakhir

ugh... ngantuk psan mna materix yg kdu dkasih bnyak & berat loba psan deui... suntuk GW...
v alhmdllah target 4 kali dah tercpai... untg.. da hikmahx jga...
huh....
heuh... npa lgi ne komputer??? knapa postionganx gk kliatan mulu??? nyebel;in.....
what's wrong with the day???
pdahal ne hari dah slt tahajud dtambah mimpi ttg kmerdekaan yg srem2 lgi ...
oh no..
dtambah suara2 aneh wktu qu bangun...
plizzz....
npa c???
pdhl dkt2 ke hri ultah ko sensix bnyak bgt5???

(^_^)

blogqu...
kangen...
asyk FBan,, jdi lpa dch ma blogqu ne....
oia,,, kmaren th bner2 lgu m2m bwtqu... WHY jdi lgu yg bqin qu bnr2 nangis wktu lthn.. pgn mrah v da ke spa...
& tba2 jdi lgux smiling face,, skalian lgux girl in your dreams,, cz when i saw U i wanted U 2 be mine,, Q gk nyangka tba2 dy! yg ad

31 OKT '09

prgi pagi,, pulang jga kyax bkal mlm neh... buat laporan bwt bsok,, trz latihan,, ad LDKM jga,, trus praktek dh ngumpulin laporan..
da sminar, fkip yg ngdain,, v 311223 th ttp z gk kliatan... ugh.. lom makan lgi ne... lapar...
tdi jdwal makanx bwt ngrjain laporan...
tdi kta t'lina yg liqo,, bner jga... sbar tu kdux gak ad habisx... pa qu bsa sbar kya gt

org lain gtu bwt ntupn klebihannya,, qu mlah ntupn kkuranganqu...
qu jga sdar gk sharusx qu kya gni,, mybe qu kdu trus diingetn kta gni,,
qu pgn ngrti & nglaksanain ap yg jdi kwajibanqu dg sbner-bnerx...
qu pasti bsa!!!

sore ni...

bru z dtg k kmpuz,,,eh dosenx malah gk ada,,, nybelin... untung bsa OL sbentar....

27 sept'09..

skian lma nunggu,, jdi jga akhrx k cilengkrang,,
ya,, msqi gak srame low hang out ma ank2 'Dunia mlik sNdiri' or ank2 'G2_Zealen'
v mnding ah bwt ngobatn sdiqit krinduan...
a... c aster,, q dah lupa mlah ngingetn lgi ma somethink yg dah q lupain tu,, v skrg udh idon't care,, so gk s-parah dlu...


kyax mantan sniorqu tu dah mu jdi kakak iparqu bner deh....

333333

ktawa,,, v mko pgn nangis ea???

Tang9al cAntix,, ada ap d taNggal ni?? 9-9-09

wduh,, pgi2 dah gubrak... kpeleset dri kmar mndi,, jgn tanya skitx...
udah bjux yg wlw gde v gk matching lgi.. c kucrit tmenqu lcu bgt pas d ospek..
pnazz bgt...,, so dah slt dzhur jdi ngrsa lbh adem...

& tba k stand LDK,, ngbagiin buletin ldk,, tba2 q reflek ngliat 311223,, my SunnY..
speechless.. gw gtau mo ngmg ap,, gw gtau pa yg gw rsain,, gw gtau mzti tangis kya t'akhir kali ktemu dy or gak...

pa ne takdir q hrus ktmu dy lgi??
pdhl 89% inatn ttg dy dah mnguap dri otakqu.. palagi wktu dy ngbrol ma smeone else.. q gk bsa,!!

I don't have to try,, to reach out for U in time..


plgx Q ksni,, Q ktmu ma sri,, tmen lma(SD)qu,,,
& she say that my friend bxk yg jdi org gk bner,, wadoh..

y Allah,, kuatkn imanqu,, wlw smetimes i can be 'Eupeung',, v q pgn jdi wnita sholehah,, cie... v bner ko.. tunjukin jlan yg bner bwtqu,, brikan Cinta yg t'baik u/qu d dunia maupn akhirat...

IT'S NOT MY WORLD..
i can't find it,,, not yet...
hmmh... my eyes so hurt..

i don't know how i feel tomorrow../
it's not same,,
cuz' it's a different day...

,,,

hore....
ktua bru dpilih....
ru plg,,, cape......

Kajian cOmeiT k_3...

uch....
skit prut bgtz....
maagh kalee y???

v msa big girls bsa kna magh c??

bngUng yeuh....

Y MPUN.... ssah bgt t'xta bwt kputusan....
what should I decided????

WHAT'S WRONG WITH MY Brain??

kmaren,, ksel,, umbak-ambek olangan coz smz kga dblz,, eh pas dblz jdi ktawa2 sndri smpe2 gi smzn ma ndhie pn jdi slh krim cz kpiqiran truz...............

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA........................................................
I wanT 2 BE FREE...............................................................
Q GK MAU KYAK GNI TRUZ<.........!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SAMPAI KPAN??? APA SAMPAI Q KDU MNDRITA LGI KYA DLU ?????
& mNgulang smua kSaLahnqu???

eh qelz,,
kdux lo nyadar low lo gk pantes bwt dy!!
lo th spa????

bnyak yg lbih perfect dari lo dskeliling dy,,,
& dy pzti mlih yg lbih dari lo kan??
dy tgl mlh yg pling smpurna diantra yg ngantri...

ukh.................................

eits!!
remember,,,!!!
just vasa a SECRET ADMIRER,, NO More!!!!!

Yellow flower,, i like it....

I really scared if my feel is real... i don't like it....
i was waiting him out of my will...

ugh... he's so far from me... i try 2 4get,, it's difficult U know???
& he doesn't came....

how could U do this to me??? in my dreams you said we are meant to be....
U show me how 2 cRy....

though mayb i don't have curly hair or perfect attitude you like.. or maybe i don't have eyes like the sky... and i know,,, i'm not sure if i'm the girl in your dreams... but i'm sure 2 show U what love means!!! although i don't have luckily as good as my friends...
i must can!!!

PLEASE GET OUT OF MY HEAD!!!

3 Agustus '09

Tu gambar hasil jEpretanz qyu lo...
gunung kErinci,, di jalanx....

Alhmdulillh Allah mmbukakan mtaqu...
mslh 3 ukm yg kmarn dah kelar 1,, & I try 2 ttp d hi...
& skrg jga d transfr,, ktax c 200 oktaf,, v gtau qx yg lola or gmana,, krasax th tpis bgtz....

ngdnger "Siap... Grak!!"
dari stadion,,, pzti pda pradiklat...
Subhanallah... kangen bgt ma pzkbra,, ma bris-b'baris...

ktemu n1,yani,popi&andri,, mreka pda mu smpe asrama dch kytax...
Genta,, imiss U all...
v Q jdi tmbah yaqin...

"Keimanan dan ketaqwaan akan menghasilkan kekuatan!!"

Cari Kerja??? hehe..

T'nyata yang namanya cri krjaan th ssah jga...
gj sgampang kliatannya...
cape lgi... palagi mentari setia menemani dengan panasnya yang gk tanggung2 menyengat itu lho...
yg paling sbel c pas bulak-balik k klurahn... org2x mlah pada maen Domino,,,
gk ngrti bgt org lgi perlu...

t' day nya gk ada lgi u/ mrubah suasna hti...
but txta aster lbih tau bxj ttg dy..,.uch,,, up to him,,,
i don't care what U thinking,,,
I don't care about anything...

I just wanna like U,, NOT 4 ever,,,do you ever think that???

Jalan santai_uniku'09

spt biasa Dmulai dg ngaret... ma ank Lebay,, ni kaki rada2 lecet uyz..
d winduhaji,, we're rest 2gether, me,ekka,de2w,& indro.. da iCe doger lewat,, di embat dech... haus... after that,, wduh dah ktinggalan jauh ni...
so...
ada delman lewat2,, v dianggurn z,, & saat yg ke3 lwat,, qta manfaatn z bwt ke kmpuz...
so qta sma2 naik delman kusir kuda & du2k brg2,, eka duduk samping pak kusior yang du2k dimuka,, mngendarai kuda supaya baik jalannya... hehe..

malu c yg lain jalan & pada disuraqn gtu,, v gmana,, emg dah ktinggaln jauh,, lagian low dpaksain ni kaki bkal tmbh lecet lgi.. da day jga,, wduh.. mukaqu pgn ditu2pn helm ni....

ywdah mo ap lgi so nytel musik smbil ftyo2 & ktawa2 dh d delmanx,,
bkan jalan santai,, v 'kuda santai' hehe...

v kan qta jga smpt jlan lma sblumx...(^_^)

nyobain cireng,, enk jga...

pngumumn doorprize,, pda eupeunk tu ank2,, rame sndri wlw bkan kami yg dpt,, so pda ngliatn.,.. c indro kya mnang v gu2r.. rbut mlu c,, kulkas mlayang dh...

oy... mmbBTkan cz bsok q uas praktek olangn,,, hiks hiks...
mna da kgiatn dauroh lgi,, gtau kdu ikt atw gfk,, cz psti ribet low iy...

I don't wanna be...

He looks like so innocent,, so nice..'!
Astghfirullah.. q gmau nyari2 dy..
q gk mau mnanti utk dy,, & q gmau slalu ngliat dy,,,
krna q tkut u/ mncintanya...
q gk rela klau hrus ngrasain skit hti krn 'something different 2 him'...
v sjak mimpi tu,, byang2 dy all d day smaqn trasa dkt,,
otakq ssah u/ mnolakx,, krna htiqu bbicara lain... htiqu prlahn-lhan mngalahkn akalqu yg bfikirn klau dy emfg bkan u/qu..
q pgn jdi biasa z kya sikap tmn2qu slamna ni,, pdahal dah q cba,, v ttp z gda hsilx cz q emg gk bsa...
i don't wanna do this,, anymore...

''''''''

COME BACK 2 KUNINGAN....

Makroni dri kampuz 2 t'nyata enak jga lo....

mkan brg2 lgiu...
^_^

31 Juni '09

at 1st it's like usually............................
but,,,, it's so complicatd...
Why do U hae 2 go & makes the things so complicated???
i see the way your acting like u somebody else& gets me frustated,,

mReka gk nyadar,, dg b'kata sperti itu...
ada hati yang sakit,,,,
Q jga manusia,, punya mata,,
telinga hati & p'rasaan...
wlau tak trungkapkn,, v emg gk hrus diungkap kn???
knapa gk dari dulu dia jujur??
Q cma ngrasain sakitnya,, v gi bsa ngrasain
hal yg indah dri rasa itu...

& it's just a last...
i forced it with smile&laugh...
& deep inside my tears i'll down...
they never know....
hmmmh....

hijaunya kampuzqu,,,,
hamparan sawah yang menghijau,, bagaikanpermadani yang lembut,, semilirnya angin menambah kesyahduan suasana.....
damai banget....
ilike it!!!

311223 gk ad kbarx,,,
he's hard to find...

oia,,, kmaren mkan rujak kangkungx 'Cibingbin' di klaz,,,
bau terasinya itu lo,,,,,,,
mnyebar ke segenap penjuru.....
untung dosenx gk msuk lagi....

sssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssstttttttttttttttt

Di suatu tmpat Ynk indah.... smilir angin & hijaunya alam.......
gMrericik Air tErjun,,,

---Subhanallah---

,,, Alangkah indah Alam ini....
Andaikan disini ada DIA,, bersamaQ merasakan kebahagiaan ini...

Q ingin penantian Q dulu gak sia-sia.....
iF oNly wishes cOuld be dReams & aLL My dReams cOuld CoMe tRue,,

Q bkal sngat bersyukur.......
izinkan Q mrasakan prasaan kya dulu lgi,,
with my SInCeRe love,,

((""__""))

rumah impian,,, what's wrong with my dream??? aneh bgtz,,, lutchu z low jdi bneran......

0000000

hehehe,,, akhrnya k'wujud jga......

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abu-abu..................... Bingung hrs nysel atw gx.......... v bnr kn low Q g blh nghianatn kmitmen yg dah Q buat... & ni buat k'baikn Q jg....

tHe Bad Damn ThiNg....

!t's nice to know that U were there,, thanks for acting like you cared,, & make me feellike i was the only one,, it's nice to know we had it all,, thanks 4 watching was I fALL,, & letting me know we were done...

3 April'09

Cintaku hilang... jiwaku lepas entah kemana.. mimpiku musnah... tak tersisa,, kini sirna,,, usai sudah.... Q gx nyangka akhrnya jdi kya gni... dia brengsek...

TemaN...

stiap org pztu pnya kkur4gn&klbihn,, drimu hny sdg di uji,, jangan terlalu sering engkau berkeluh kesah ttg kkuranganmu,,krn dlm k'adaan sprti ni drimu ssah u/ mliht klbihn yg Allah Brikn pdamu,, jka engkau b'tnya ttg k'adiln,, myb Allah px rncna yg lbh baik u/mu,, dan qta gk p'nah tau tu ap,, so smangtlh jlni hdp,, calm down,, take it eazy... keyz...(^_^)

au ah glap

lho kok dy bsa msk& sklaz ma q?? bnyk org dri msalalu yg tba2 mncul.. why??

r3gret

"jAngan p'nah mnuN9Gu WkTu u/ mNylesaikan ssuatu,, kAreNa waktu yg kita tunggu-tnggu itu tdk akan mampu mnyelesaikannya,,,, apalagi klau itu sangat b'arti..." Qyu GK mau da org yg b'nasib sma sprti qyu,, mngandalkan wktu utk ssuatu yg pntg dlm hdupqu agar dpt brjlan ssuai dgn apa yg Qu impikan,, sharusnya qu yg brani ngmbil kputusan dgn sgala resikonya.. v qu emg pngecut ygt gk bsa nghadapinya... qu gk punya nyali utk mngejar impianku,, ssuatu yang sngat qu impikan,,, & akhirnya... impian itu hanya menjadi sia-sia,, bkan HaPPy EndiNg sperti yang qu byangkan,, & Qu jdi sperti org bdoh...

ada ap ma org2 dskitar qyu?? q gk ngrti ma jln pkirn mreka,, bkn tkg tu yg slah, dia kn cma wspda z... ap krn nma q q jdi lbih bsa ngrtiin mreka dripda org yg lbh baik driqyu skalipun??

hmmmmhhh.....

i don't know what i feel,,, what must i do with my feeling... i'm tired 4 all,,, but i try to enjoy it,, i'm forced to face a smile, a laught every day my life.... i hope there's someone will waiting me with his sincere love 4 me.... i hope it really be....

^_^

Hmmmh... slesai udah yg nmanya pusink gra2 ngapalin,,,, i'ts time 2 refreshing......!!!!

palutungan berkabut..... kitse punyse bahatse barse.... mandarse bukse,, jepse bukse,, chinse bukse,, sunse jga bukse...... mu UAS... cuape dch.... Mgtse atse kga saktse.....

i'm looking for a place,,, i'm searching for a face,, is anybody here I know,,,,,,,,, Isn't anyone try to find me,,, won't somebody come take me home????
Won't you,, take me by d' hand take me somewhere new??? I don't know who you are,,, but i'm with U...

MY LIFE

Slalu ada pilihan dalam hidup,,masing-masing pilihan memiliki konsekuensi,,,,
Tapi kita sering menjatuhkannya justru pada pilihan yang memberikan kenyamanan dalam jangka pendek saja,,, dan akhirnya waktu berlalu tanpa ada makna baru yang bisa kita dapatkan dalam hidup,,,,, pilihan itu adalah hidup,,, dan hidup adalah ketentuan Allah...............